I don't know if this song/video will mean much to anyone who reads this, maybe a few people. But I came across it while looking around on You Tube, I've never heard it before. It's very poignant and very much speaks what is going on in my head right now. It's very emotional. Like I've said, somedays are better than others. It's worse when I have quiet time to myself and then I start thinking...and thinking is not always the best thing to be doing. I know I've only just started talking about making a baby, but it has been about 15 months that we've been trying and it is getting long..sometimes getting to me. I know there are alot of other big things going on in the world, but right now, for me, for us, this is the biggest thing.
well anyways, I hope this link thing works.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JqfGqOx2iDQ
let me know what you think.
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Friday, April 2, 2010
long time gone
so its been a while since I posted last. I really don't remember what I've "told" everyone lately, so I'll just put everything.
well we've been ice fishing more this past winter than we ever have in our entire lives, and it was always fun. people keep telling me I have to go out and try and enjoy winter then maybe I won't hate it so much, so I did. and it also helped that this past winter was one of the mildest and with the least amount of snow on record for like the past 50 or 60 years. I know I shouldn't be overly happy about it, the environment is taking a shit kicking and it's not a good thing, but really, I didn't mind. LOL.
k well so I've also been to the OBGYN's again, and apparently all my test results came back fine, nothing is stopping me from getting pregnant, except for lack of regular ovulation...geee isnt that kinda important? anyways - he gave me Clomid, which I don't start taking till AF comes back and I start the Clomid on the 5th day of my cycle, so yes for once in my life I actually want AF to come. Hard to believe but ya I really do. My mom jokingly said, watch it, you won't even need that stuff. That would be awesome! Still no AF, it's been just over a month and nothing. I go back to the OBGYN on April 27th, so time will tell if AF comes back and I start the Clomid or not, and he has to give me something to induce ovulation. Stupid body.
My emotions have been going really crazy lately, it's prolly just my hormones being all out of whack. One day I'll be super happy and hopeful and all that and the next I'll be practically depressed. It's driving me crazy I can only imagine how it's making Drew. But he's so good with me, leaves me be when I need it and doesn't when I don't. Does that make sense? anyhow. now the past like week or so I just can't get enough pretzels, sticks or twists, doesn't matter. I don't know if that means anything or if it's all in my head(which it prolly is) but it's weird. at least it's not like chocolate bars or something really bad for me right? I swear I am keeping Rold Gold pretzels in business now. lol
well it's finally spring. YIPPEE!! I'd have to say it's about my most fav time of the year, everything is fresh and new and great. It feels like a new beginning or something, as cheese ball as that sounds, but you know what I mean right?
I'm going to be putting my first load of laundry out on the clothes line today, I can't wait! Nothing smells better than linens dried out on the clothes line! Also, going back to blonde today, figured it was time. I'll keep blonde as my summer colour and red for the winter. LOL.
I think I'll be blogging more now...don't know why, just have a feeling. a good feeling.
thanks for reading. leave me comments if you want. :)
it's been a slice. till next time. ciao!
well we've been ice fishing more this past winter than we ever have in our entire lives, and it was always fun. people keep telling me I have to go out and try and enjoy winter then maybe I won't hate it so much, so I did. and it also helped that this past winter was one of the mildest and with the least amount of snow on record for like the past 50 or 60 years. I know I shouldn't be overly happy about it, the environment is taking a shit kicking and it's not a good thing, but really, I didn't mind. LOL.
k well so I've also been to the OBGYN's again, and apparently all my test results came back fine, nothing is stopping me from getting pregnant, except for lack of regular ovulation...geee isnt that kinda important? anyways - he gave me Clomid, which I don't start taking till AF comes back and I start the Clomid on the 5th day of my cycle, so yes for once in my life I actually want AF to come. Hard to believe but ya I really do. My mom jokingly said, watch it, you won't even need that stuff. That would be awesome! Still no AF, it's been just over a month and nothing. I go back to the OBGYN on April 27th, so time will tell if AF comes back and I start the Clomid or not, and he has to give me something to induce ovulation. Stupid body.
My emotions have been going really crazy lately, it's prolly just my hormones being all out of whack. One day I'll be super happy and hopeful and all that and the next I'll be practically depressed. It's driving me crazy I can only imagine how it's making Drew. But he's so good with me, leaves me be when I need it and doesn't when I don't. Does that make sense? anyhow. now the past like week or so I just can't get enough pretzels, sticks or twists, doesn't matter. I don't know if that means anything or if it's all in my head(which it prolly is) but it's weird. at least it's not like chocolate bars or something really bad for me right? I swear I am keeping Rold Gold pretzels in business now. lol
well it's finally spring. YIPPEE!! I'd have to say it's about my most fav time of the year, everything is fresh and new and great. It feels like a new beginning or something, as cheese ball as that sounds, but you know what I mean right?
I'm going to be putting my first load of laundry out on the clothes line today, I can't wait! Nothing smells better than linens dried out on the clothes line! Also, going back to blonde today, figured it was time. I'll keep blonde as my summer colour and red for the winter. LOL.
I think I'll be blogging more now...don't know why, just have a feeling. a good feeling.
thanks for reading. leave me comments if you want. :)
it's been a slice. till next time. ciao!
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