Tomorrow is the day

Ok so tomorrow is the day I find out what our next step will be...hopefully there will be a next step. I'm trying to tell myself to stop thinking like that, but of course with all our wonderful luck over the past 7-8 years I always tend to go right to the most negative that way if the worst happens..well it's no big shocker, but if something better than the worst happens then I'm happily surprised. :-) I think that made sense?
So ya tomorrow is the day, finally.
Went to Sudbury on sunday...visited Science North on Monday and came home Tuesday. Also got to see one of my best friends while I was there, I miss her very much, she really needs to move back to Timmins!
I can't believe how much snow we DON'T have, it's awesome! It's amazing! It's not going to stay this way...BOOO...of course we are due for some rain/flurries over the next few days/week...BOOOO(again!). but I don't really care, I've started growing some flowers inside, in a window sill green house thingy...it's awesome! I know I might be jumping the gun a little, but meh...see what happens I guess. trying to save some money...we shall see.
well keeping my fingers crossed and I hope you do too for me for tomorrow. ;-)

Oh Happy Day! It's friday!

ya like the title says..it's Friday...oh I love fridays! especially when they are the fridays before a long weekend. ok so this long weekend, is only a long weekend for me, cause I took 2 days off work but whatever it's still a long weekend! BOOYA!
Had a lovely Friday evening, went out for dinner with my hubby and our very good friend, then played some games on the Wii...who knew 2 chicks could swear so much at a video game system. HEHEHE. All good times though, all good times.
I'm still in disbelief about this wicked awesome...totally awesome weather we've been having. it's just ridiculous but I love it!! at this point our entire driveway is clear or any snow and or ice, its amazing! my one garden right in front of the house is totally exposed...such a tease...I can't wait to plant! ok OK I know I'm jumping the gun on that one. Well I am trying to grow some flowers inside, I bought some kit thingys at the dollar store, see what happens. hehe.
Well after ummm...bleeding for about 6 weeks it has finally stopped! WHOOOOOOHOOOOOOO! Just in time for me to go out of town for 2 nights (boo) and for my OBGYN appt next thursday...come on March 18th! (told you I'd say that alot).
Not so sure what I'm doing tomorrow..hubby is going into work for a few hours, so I'll prolly get the house cleaned up and some laundry done while he's gone, then we can have some time together, before I take off on Sunday afternoon. very much looking forward to Science North and seeing one of my best friends. I hate that we live so far apart, I keep trying to tell her to move back, but that is easier said than done. ya moving sucks. I won't be doing that again for a very long time, and the next time I do I'll be paying someone to pack and move my shit for me!
So did I mention the weather and how insane it is? there where people out fishing on the river today, they where in a boat! it's freaking march! meh...

well - it's been a slice...ciao

thursday march 11 2010

so hows it going? well its been a wierd week, alot of thinking going on, alot of thoughts flowing through my head...about alot of different things.
I'm getting very anxious but a good anxious(I think) about going to the OBGYN in a week from today. I really do just want some answers and hopefully those answers come with a next step. I'm sure they do, but try telling my brain that, try getting it to stop spinning a million miles a minute...it's very frustrating sometimes.
Well I am very much looking forward to having a break from work this coming monday and tuesday, don't get me wrong I totally love my job and everyone I work with are awesome and my bosses, well couldn't ask for better. I just need a break that's all.
Well found out we are going to be getting money back from Income taxes....awesome! It's been a long time since that's happened, but like I've always said, I'm just happy to break even and not have to pay "the MAN" anything more than they already take....but don't get me started on that, yikes.
We are finally going to be doing more grown up stuff, like starting to pay into RRSP's....YAWN...I know. Being all grown up sure can be boring sometimes.

umm well I think that's all for today...it's just been one of those days...nothing too exciting going on. ;-)
It's been a slice!

later today - March 10 2010

So I've started this blog, I keep telling myself this will be a good thing, that I'll be able to get out all sorts of junk I've got floating around in my head and maybe that's true and maybe it's not. I suppose the old saying holds true "only time will tell". That lovely saying holds true for pretty much anything and everything, unless of course you are clairvoyant and can see into the future. If you could see into the future, would you really want to see it, what kind of life would that leave you with if you always knew what was going to happen. I honestly think that would suck. As much as I whine(or will whine) about not knowing whats going to happen with regards to certain things in my life, if I had to choose between not knowing the future and knowing it, I would stick with not knowing it, unless of course could choose what I saw about certain aspects of my life...but then again if you saw only certaion aspects, you would probably see how other things would be affected.. OK - I could probably go on and on and on and on and on and on......forever about that. yikes!

Well today was a good day. I came to the decision to not buy another used piece of furniture, I will wait and buy something brand new, when I actually need it OR when it goes on sale, whichever comes first. I also bought a Weight Watchers Points Calculater/tracker thingy (ok so I did that last night, but whatever), so as soon as that puppy arrives I am SOOO back on the WW bandwagon, I know it works, it worked for me before, I know I can do it againl. I have a super support group in a few friends/cousins/family members...you know who you are. ;-) ;-)
I'm doing this to make the whole "We want a baby" thing a little easier, I know being overweight can't help. Did I mention yet that March 18th seriously can't come soon enough. that is the day I go get test results from my OBGYN and see what the next step in the "We want a baby" process is...so ya I'll probably be saying that alot...come on March 18th!!
But before March 18th, is this weekend..DUH! and on Sunday I am going to Sudbury and I will be seeing one of my best friends and her babies(and her husband...I guess..maybe?!) anyways..I miss her very much and wish everyday that we lived closer together! BOO.
Well I guess this is probably more than enough for my first day of blogging. I think I'm going to like this. It's like talking to someone, laying it all out and not having to worry about weird responses...well unless of course you want to comment, which of course I will always welcome.
Thanks - It's been a slice. A demain!

Wednesday March 10 2010

This is my first post in my first blog. I don't know how this is going to work out, but I think it will be a good thing for me. I live in Timmins, ON (which is in Northern Ontario Canada). It is a great community to raise a family in, but there in lays my problem. I don't have a family yet, well I have my parents, my sister and my awesome husband and in-laws but we don't have our own family. To some people this might not seem like a big problem or issue, but for me it is. I want a family, I thought that by now we'd have at least one child, but we don't. We've been trying, for sure. and the practicing part is fun, don't get me wrong. But this is starting to get stupid. I've been to the doctor and now just waiting on results to see whats going on, or better, whats not going on.
I do feel very blessed for what we do have, we are both working, we own a home, have a car and all that stuff. We have of course worked very hard for what we have, nothing ever came easy for us, it's always been 1 step up and 2-3 steps back for most of our adult lives, so of course this next "step" has to be a hard one.
I think this blog will be good for me, I need to get all this pent up stuff out, and whether anyone reads it, doesn't really matter to me. If you do, please share your thoughts, positive thoughts. Like my mother tells me, if you haven't got anything nice to say, don't say anything at all.